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INFOMATION
thy blog owner.
L.I.N.G.
Welcome to my tiny world of escapades! I am a self-derived party animal.
Vibrant colours, House Music are my absolute loves..
To indulge in an explosive ride of the dissonance diffusion of lights & sounds tat where ever it may brings is a hidden adrenaline... !!!
So anybody is welcome to join me!
BTW, I m just a plain jane.....w/o the needs of artificial implements to make or feel pretty,
Cuz I feel good abt myself. Love Me or Hate Me, just dun copy me!! Be it directly or indirectly!
Have a life of ur own!
Muacks!
Soaring through, through the night.
Skyway Avenue - We The Kings
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Date / Time : Wednesday, June 18, 2008 / 5:11 PM
Sick today. Dint able to report to work.
think I got a cold n slight fever.
Been so busy recently. Trying to catch alot of sales before my school starts. Been thinking how will my financial status will be man??!!!
So busy, caught up with work. Not much time to even update both blog n my own organiser cum diary.
Actually feel kinda bad cuz when Ting n Chia n the rest ask me out, but I just been busy lo.
Will definitely make it up to them, just hope tat they will not be angry with me la.
Went back to Lunar to pass some stuff to Kenneth, saw the old timers. Kinda miss them n miss those working days back then. Miss those customers, colleagues, fights.... So miss those days... at the back of ur mind, u koe it passed, but ur heart telling u tat u would wan to go back time if possible. sigh.... this kind of feeling sucks to the core.
Sigh....
Tats y people always say everything is just temporary, n is so true. Nuthing really last forever.
' EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS TEMPORARY... DARKNESS OF THE NITE OR BRIGHTNESS OF THE DAY. EVEN SUNRISE IS TEMPORARY... AND SO IS SUN SET. IF THINGS ARE GOING GOOD, ENJOY IT... IT WONT LAST FOREVER. AND IF THINGS ARE GOING BAD... DUN WORRY CUZ IT WONT LAST FOREVER EITHER.. EVERYTHING JUST PASSES BY'
Anyway, I m kinda excited to go back to school. Cant wait to go back on this fri for orientation. Dunno how it will be like....
Recently I often get very mixed, lost n confused feeling... Feeling empty.... dunno why leh.
I came to a conclusion whereby:
I tot I resigned myself from working nightlife, I could get back the kind of feeling before. But after I did it, I not only couldnt revived back tat kind of lifestyle, situation and feeling but it got worst. I dunno why....
No doubt my life rite now after working in the day, is more enriching. Programmes after work with Ting n her gang or even go out with friends or watsoever, it just feel differently.
And by being so single now, I could have all the time for myself, rite? Absolutely rite!
But wat about the spare free time after u have devoted for urself? hahaha... tats where u really feel empty.. cuz u simply got nuthing else to do.
I feel very thankfully n appreciated with the help of Nic. Most of the time he is there, be it work, or even after work. But I cannot bug him as he got his own life... I wont try to bug others unless they bug me. Cuz I always think that other have their own life.
This thought or thinking is in my mind when during tat time I was under depression, I was out for an appreciation dinner in Suntec with my Gelare OM n 2 of the attachment staff. After dinner, I got nowhere to go. Bf at tat time is working cuz is a wednesday nite, I practically called everyone tat is in my phonebook, from A to Z. I only have 3 kind of answers. (1) 'Oh, sorry leh. I got plans later on already. U should have call me earlier' (2) 'I busy now, I call u back later' (3) No answer So I literally sat inside the Suntec Mall toilet till close, then I reluctantly dragged my feet home. No one actually called me back during tat time.
While reading my blog, u probably would be asking why i dint wan to go back home since no one is free for me.
Well... if I would to go back home, I feel empty. No one at home, just me n the four walls. As compared to outside, even though I m alone, but is not as empty as compared to at home. There are things for you to see, people to look at etc. Of course if I managed to get accompany, that would be a bonus thing.
So tats where the mentality of not bugging on to others comes from. I dun mind being bug by others. haha...
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